All I Want

Our desires are what drives us. They motivate us to go the distance. They cause us to stop in our tracks. They sometimes even make us trip in the path of life. But what flows out of us comes from those things rooted deep within us.

I've been realizing lately that I truly do just want Jesus. Yeshua. Emmanuel. I've spent time chasing after things I thought would fill me. I've tried to hold onto things to make the feeling of being satisfied last longer. It didn't work. New places, people, photographs...those last for only a time. Jesus is my constant.

"Since you have been raised to new life with Christ, set your sights on the realities of heaven." colossians 3:1a

I used to beat against this. Struggling to learn what it means to "focus" on the realities of heaven. It seemed like an impossible task for daily life. But in the past year, as I have spent time getting to know who God is and his character, I have come to this deep longing for the things of heaven. I have tasted the things of the world and the things that God gives and noticed that his gifts are so much better. Every time I lose something, it drives me back to Jesus...who is the true life. Not only do I believe this because the Bible says it, but I have experienced it. I know this life that they speak of and it causes me to turn my face towards God at all times. Not because it is "right" but because it is so much better!

Thinking about this just reminds me that this is why I want to tell people about Jesus. I want them to taste of that life that is offered to them so freely. I want the students that come to this school to see that the Holy Spirit is alive and moving. He wants to lead them into the perfect plan he has mapped out for their life. He wants his sons and daughters to know their Father. I am just a vessel that God is choosing to use in Awaken. Nothing special but the call on my life to be here.

I just want God. I want him to move through me however he wants. And that is what is driving me in this season.